Signs

Anyone who knows me, knows I believe in "signs".  Always have.  I used to put them in the same category as my going for acupuncture or having someone read my energies, using essential oils or going for a Reiki session.  Many are skeptical.  However, mindset is huge and even if it happens all to be "placebo" treatment, if I feel better after receiving these treatments, to me it's been worth every penny.  I used to place "signs" in the same category.

There were some incidents after my mother died that my dad and sisters have compared and talked about and believe were very real.  There have also been several incidents in my life since I've lost Dave and Adam that either occurred in dreams or during my waking hours that couldn't have been more obvious if I had tripped and fell over them - which in my case is always a possibility.

If you've been following me, you know that I am struggling more than I have yet on this journey and certainly more than I ever have in my life.  Things are changing around me and they are changing for the better for those involved.  And I couldn't be more happy that they are, truly and sincerely.  But when you toss a rock into the water, it causes a ripple effect.  When you are not in a good place emotionally, those ripples to you may look like tsunami waves headed your direction because you don't know what to expect when you're not  strong swimmer and swimming somewhere you've never been before.

Sadly, I have a history of "over thinking, over analyzing and sometimes overreacting.  I've been in a real emotional dither since about Easter, and as I said yesterday, have no one to talk me off the ledge close by.

Oddly enough, my sister texted last night to tell me about a sign she believed was from Adam.  I appreciated it so much.  Today, I woke frustrated because I am on month 2 of antibiotics and continuing ear infections and just depressed in general.  I get to the doctor, who happened to be a schoolmate of my daughter-in-law.  And she actually is a relative by marriage on my husband's side.  So she knew about what I've experienced in the last 17 months.  She prescribed more meds for my ears and sent me on my way.  And as I headed into work I realized my insecurities hit a real high when I didn't receive the outcome on something I expected and was really letting my imagination run wild.

It was then, when I parked to go into work, that I picked up my phone and it had a photo on it from a place in FB that I NEVER have been with a beautiful message.  And oddly enough, it even resembled my son's handwriting.  As I got out of the car I must have bumped my visor which has a photo button of Adam on it.  I didn't realize I had done that until the photo landed in my lap.  I could only laugh and tell him thanks.  Finally, to top it off, as I got into the office and logged in to my computer, I checked my daily inspirational email.  It was this:

I am leaving you with a gift—peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid. John 14:27

A Time to Think

Flowers grow out of dark moments. –Sister Mary Corita Kent, artist and educator

A Time to Act

Change your thoughts and change your life.

A Time to Pray

Dear God, help me always to see beyond my fears to the beauty of Your creation.

And of course, "My Peace I Give Unto You" is a favorite song of mine.  I get it Adam. I can hear him saying "Chill and everything will work itself out.  Give it to God Mom".  I need to do just that, give it to God and trust in the people I love and all will be as it should.

I find it a beautiful sign, and it has changed my day.  God sends us signs all the time and if we're not paying attention we often can miss them.  Jessica calls them God Winks and I believe she is correct.  And I feel I definitely was just winked at.  I'm sharing the photo that came from who knows where on my phone.  It made me smile.  Make it your best day!